Friday, February 19, 2010

Infidelity and food!

I was talking to an old friend of mine who got recently engaged. He was disturbed. Its because even after his engagement, he felt physical attraction towards other girls! And mind that he is engaged to someone he loves. I have full faith on the love of each of them for the other. And because he loves her a lot, he is disgusted with such feelings and was quite disturbed. This left me ponder...

Why do we put so much importance on physical attraction? Why do we always try to say that sex is not at all important, but in this process make it a "class apart". Sex is just another physical need for us, like food or water. Do we always eat our dinner at home? Does eating in a hotel or at a friend's place puts a question on our love for our mother/wife? Then why the same rule can't be applied in the case of sex? Why should we mix up love/attachment and sex?

Friday, February 12, 2010

Strong feeling!

Many times we use this phrase "strong feeling" in a pretty casual way. Today I was writing something in my diary and used the phrase. Then I realised though I had a "strong feeling" on whatever matter I was refering to, at the moment of writing my diary the feeling was not that strong! On contemplation I realised that a strong feeling is always associated with a subconscious desire to defy it!

Lets take a more explicit example. When do you think/realise that something is strong? Strength is validated only in adverse conditions, when there is a sufficiently strong opponent. Applying this analogy to thoughts/feelings, when I say I have a "strong feeling" about something, it inherently implies that there is an under current of feelings/secret-desires against my feelings. Then only my feelings become strong, rather we appreciate them as strong. And mark that the opposing under-current of feelings mostly will not be conspicuous or easy to tell apart!

PS: (Spin-off) The V-day enthusiasts, reconsider your line of thoughts when you think that " I gotta "strong feeling" that this gotta be the person made for me!"

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

"Promise"

Infinite space and infinite time;
Infinite faces to recall;
Infinite length of paths and
A finite length of awaiting! 1

The beautiful face with curly hairs;
Hazy gaze in the smiling eyes;
Mind running in infinite directions;
Awake just for a finite second! 2

That curly haired face,
Stamped on memory so brightly;
Couldn't force it out of the infinite faces;
Couldn't pin it in the infinite time. 3

For sure we have met,
Know her do I for sure;
I'm also sure of her love for me;
Just cant remember when was it! 4

Ah! it was here a while ago;
A while can mean any finite time;
We met here I am now sure.
And she told she would come for me! 5

Today is the day I suppose,
Now is the time she promised;
But still cant figure out where is she;
The infinite number of faces.... difficult to see! 6

A wait and wait and further did I wait.
Finite time stretching to infinite duration;
Thoughts running amok in all directions
And finally came that moment! 7

The moment did come finally!
The moment when anger caught hold of me;
Boiling blood and sanguine thoughts;
Without relevance or perseverance! 8

Again the same story repeats,
Finite time stretch to infinite durations;
Blood gets tired of running so fast;
I observe that my finite time is over! 9

Why did she not keep her promise?
Why did she make me wait for ever?
In infinite time among infinite faces;
Why she forced me to look so awkward?
To force a finite time and a finite face?
Or was it some other day she promised?
How can I know?
With infinite time and infinite faces... I am lost!! 10